Will I?

oh dear lord...

I just went through and revisited old blog posts... my oh my how the mighty have fallen. One line in particular struck me to the core...

I wrote "people always say that I am too happy, too optimistic, and too nice."

Did I use it all up? Did I not ration my lifetime supply of happiness? I thought it was like an all you can eat buffet.

Well - maybe it is. Maybe I just got lost on my way back from the powder room.

Okay - enough milling... I have had enough. Enough moping. Enough crying. Enough anger. I am pouring it all down the drain and beginning fresh.

I will write again.
I will create.
I will listen to new music.
I will read old books.
I will listen to old music.
I will read new books.
I will join the community.
I will do the things that scare me.
I will go it alone.
I will do the unthinkable.
I will be honest.
Brutally honest.
I will explore.
I will persist
I will continue
I will love
I will see
I will see the error in my ways
I will be patient
but I will not wait forever
I will be proactive
I will be fierce
I will be powerful
I will change
I will change
I will change
for me

signing off
warrior reborn